Today's cake and something else

Haha, no photo today.
Because I could not wait to have the cake!
It was really really yummy...
Only cakes make me happy recently.

Anyway, today was a pretty cozy day and I am sure it is warmer than Japan!
I do love British weather.
In Wales, it always rains, but it was not as bad as Japanese rainy season!
I cannot leave here!!

Recently, I feel like I do not have any emotions inside of me.
I get stressed easily, but nothing else.
Even when I want to cry, I cannot cry.
It is like I am not alive now.

Recently, my best friend always says that she should better die (kill herself), because she does not get along with her crush and cannot get a boyfriend...
How silly...if she has to die because she cannot get a boyfriend,
I would have died already, too...I had to die at least 3 times for the last 2 years then..
I know she is saying half joking, but half serious.
I heard last year 30,000 people killed themselves in Japan.
If they are enough brave to kill themselves, I think they could survive.
It is much easier, but maybe not for them...
Difficult issue..
Actually, sometimes I face a serious issue which I think I would die if I were a weaker person.
But recently, I do not care about anything so much..I even do not feel anything...
What's wrong with me...
I do not know...
I really feel I am a boring boring person.
But I still have friends who smile to me and I owe them too much to die now.

I do not know what I wanted to write, but I am just worried about my friend...
Don't die please. I love you so much...