Long time no seeeeeeee

After moving into London, my life has been absolutely busy and I often cried alone honestly.
Many times, I could not manage to sleep at an appropriate time because of either too much job or being stressed.
London was my dream, but people here tend to be cold comparing to Welsh.
Of course my circumstance also has been changed.
I was a student, but now I am working. Actually I am helping my mother's job as a volunteer
(NO SALARY, OF COURSE).
I never thought I wanted to go back to Japan when I was in Wales, but now sometimes I am thinking so, to be honest.
I do realise that being student is absolutely great. The life of them is full of fun, nothing else.
I just have started working, but my friends are mostly working for like 2 years so far after we graduated from the uni.
I do understand why they often complain about their jobs so much although it was a way which they chose. I am sure they thought I am far away such a stressful life (actually not really, though).
Now I have some goals.
Firstly, I want to move into another house which has at least kind of 2 bed rooms.
Because I often have to pack lots of stuff, such as antiques, clothing, pound cakes (it was really troublesome to send all of the pound cakes from here because eating stuff has to be passed a test of customs basically) and such and such.
Beside a tiny bed, I have to do everything like this. All the time, my bed tend to loose the name "bed" whenever I pack and scatter everything related to packing. Of course, bed is my most helpful target to be fulled of stuff.
I cannot say such a luxuriate thing, but if I had another spare room, at least I can sleep peacefully.. I want to make money to move into another house!!!!! It is a secret to my mum so far, though.

Secondly, I want to establish a shipping company.
BECAUSE, the shipping company which I am dealing with is terribly rubbish and inflexible.
SADLY, it is Japanese company. But there is no options for us to choose.
I really cannot believe that Japanese company CAN behave like this and look down customers.
I would not say they should respect customers like most companies and shops do in Japan, but at least people should be equal and fair.
But from the beginning, they look me down and keep cheating, for example, they do not know their own system so much because they are sometimes a new comer, but they tried to force me to trust their way.
It was really surprising that they offered ￡950 to send just 40 pieces of pound cake to Japan.
Who would be willing to pay such a money although the cake is just a 6 pounds each.
Maybe you will not understand why I am angry with it so much, but I will not write the details so much, because I am just tired now.lol
OK, it is my second dream.
I have a confidence that I could establish a company with a kind and helpful service, at least more than them! They always made me sad.
I thought I really do not want to work here if Japanese become like this.
Very irrespectable people!

Ok...third goal.
Actually, I have to grant this dream ASAP!
I want to open a shop and want to settle in the UK, now I do not mind it is in Wales.
I could develop Wales market if they want, but I do not think they want.
I am eager to have a shop relating to accessories and watches actually, but maybe
difficult...who knows.
Honestly, I needed to time to learn about this, but surprisingly
actually I do not believe myself too, I have a ticket to Japan the day after tomorrow!!!!!
Seriously, I have been very busy...(AGAIN! OF COURSE NO SALARY)

But sometimes, people make me want to cry in a good way.
I said there are lots of cold people here, but sometimes,
I meet heart-warmed people here.
Not so many times, but whenever those people care about me and would try to help me although it is my business, I really feel I have to be strong for them.
This feeling is like the one which I often felt in Tokyo.
In my selfish imagination, Tokyo people tend to cold, and actually I felt so whenever I visited Tokyo. Their conversation is boring and their outfit is dark.
But sometimes, I met nice people there and a very little times, they made me smile
in such a big city Tokyo.
(But maybe I have to say they are mostly from Osaka living in Tokyo, haha)
But life here is something like this.
Life is not so easy, but not so boring.
But honestly,,,I do not know if I will come back to London once I get back to Japan the day after tomorrow....Only if Paolo Nutini is waiting for me, I would go back my sweet home, though...
Never happens..I KNOOOOOOOOOOW!

YEAH!

Yeah! I finished my dissertation this morning at last!!!

I was sleepy enough to go to bed straight away, but was so thirsty and drank.

just a can of it, but it made me feel sooo good and thought

I might die right away if I close my eyes.

But my room is soooooooooo messy and even could not find my mobile.

If Paolo Nutini comes to my room suddenly, he will not marry me..

I did not want to be found in such a dirty room.

When I woke up.

I heard annoying music like the hell from upstairs and thought

DO NOT LISTEN TO MUSIC SO LOUDLY IN THE MORNING PLEASE

in my mind...

But, actually....IT WAS 4 O'CLOCK.

I was alive, but could not find glasses.

I thought...shall I keep sleeping?

Now, I found glasses underneath my body on the bed and ate NATTO!!

Don' t know how to call it in English, but NATTO is NATTO!

I used to like NATTO when I was very young,

but since someday, I have not eaten NATTO.

But my friend who visited my house for a while left some NATTO in my fridge,

and thought it might be good for my silly hangover.

It was OK, I think I conquered NATTO!

I have not eaten anything healthy recently and my skin is totally bad.

Now, I finish my dissertation, I will start healthy life as long as I can from tomorrow, not today.

but still I am suffered from hangover...I should not have drunk.

And what is this weird sholder pain...

I think I am getting old...............

I want to go to have a massage!

Buried

I watched a film called Buried.
But actually, I had known the end of the story because somebody boring commented on youtube before I went to the cinema...so I did not expect so much.
The story was...a man who is a driver in Iraq found himself buried and injured in a coffin when he woke up.
I couldn't breathe properly during the film and after that I felt really sick.
I had a similar feeling like when I watched another film called "es (The experiment)" long time ago.
I forgot the plot of this film mostly, but it was such a story like people are examined how they go during a weird experiment and actually the film was made based on the real experiment which was done in US or somewhere. They totally got mad during the experiment and the film was really exciting and scary, I remember.
After my friend and me came back to my flat, we could not sleep soon because of the film which we saw. And we had a really silly conversation.
I said "What number should I call when I found myself buried? 911?"
He said "No, It's American. You have to call 999 in the UK."
I said "No, if I am buried in Iraq!!!! what number?"
He said "....You will not be buried in Iraq..OK?.."
But this film really made me feel I might have a chance to be buried in Iraq.
I really do not know if I could use this word "chance" here.

I am doing my dissertation about product placement.
And I was curious which kind of branded product was used in this kind of unusual film.
I could not find any. Ah maybe Zippo. I think they said "Zippo" and what about the watch?
I found "Hamilton"on his watch, but don't know if it is a existing brand or not.
The mobile brand was not shown, I think.
But found the mobile has a function to change languages and Japanese was also there.
I am so jealous! Even his mobile can change the language into Japanese...but see my mobile?
They cannot change the language into Japanese although I bought this because they said I could download Japanese!
Such a big lie! I could not download and even engineer cannot download.
First time I visit the engineer centre, they said
"Why do you need Japanese? You are speaking English!"
And found it takes two days or so, so I gave up.
Next time I visit the engineer again, and they said
They do not download Japanese even if I pay.
I hate this mobile!!
They should be buried!
Oh I changed the topics.

I found a really funny comment on youtube.

"I like the part where he was in the box.”

you will know what the comment means after you see the film indeed.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Recently, I didn't eat so much.
Apple, chocolate and Caramel Macchiato were basic daily meal last week.
I used to like to eat so much, but now, just I am busy and lazy.
Those food looks not so much, but carolie....cannot think about it!!

Today, my friend came to London and stay at my flat.
He went to meet his friend and I was staying home.
He called me "Are you hungy?"
I said "No" because we had a big subway bread and big diet coke and later we had two scoops of icecream so far when he called me!!
It was more than enough for current me. I was totally full!!
But, he bought a whole kantonese duck for dinner!!!!!!!!!
It is one of my most favourite meal!!
We almost finished the whole duck with two people...
My stomach says NO WAY now!
I need to go walking or running, but maybe too dark...
I will have a long bath to sweat tonight.
I put too much weight recently, and will go to a Taiwanese food festival tomorrow....
I cannot think anything now..just eat too much..
Kantonese duck always makes me crazy.
It's duck's fault, not me!

21/10/2010

My friend from the postgraduate course said
"My heart is always with you..You always made my life colourful whenever I am with you!"
What a sweet!
If she were a boy, I might have fallen in love with her!!!lol
I just cried after I read this message, because she always helped me.
Even I was struggling with my course work the day before the deadline, she came to the library at midnight and helped my work.
And she cooked me the most delisious Thai curry!!! I cannot forget how delicious it was.
I really don't know what I could do for her, but I am really happy to have met such a lovely friend from Thailand.
To be honest, I do not like girls so much since I have been in a girls school for 6 years and totally I got how mean and crazy girls are.lol
She is one of a few girls whom I really miss.
She is mature and thoughtful.
I want to do something nice for her someday, and planning on visiting Thailand in the near future!! I wanna fly there!!!

[PV] DA PUMP - Get On The Dance Floor (Full Size Edition)

COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

They were my star when I was younger!

They used to be a 4 member group, but now...everybody is separated...

They cannot be nothing unless they are 4 together!!

Recently, I have been listening to this song endlessly!

Their dance...amazing...Come back, Da pump!!!

Love your performance forever!!

The saddest experience ever...

A week ago, oh almost two weeks ago, my love grandpa passed away.
I really really loved him. He always loved me as well.
Whenever I called him, he always said "Hello (English)" to me although he forgot most of things.
He was a playful and sweet man. I always sleep next to him whenever I visit him.
I cannot see the real still now. I think I can see him soon again.
He always said to me that he will buy a new kimono for my wedding...
I wanted him to do so..I wanted to show my baby to him..he would love my baby too...
We did not expect he would die with this timing...I quickly came back to Japan with nothing.
There was no choice except that.
I should have seen his face,
but everybody said I should not see because his face was too injured to see...
But, may be I still should have seen him, because he even changed my nappies since I was born and washed my peed futon, so I should not have been afraid of it.
I cried all day long. I wanted to make the fact dream. But it was a real.
I thought I would cry a lot after we send him for being burnt, but I did not cry as much as I did before that. I was relieved that I could see him finally although he became pieces of bones.
I picked some pieces of his bones up and brought them back to London.
Ji-chan, do you enjoy London? Do you love it? Do you want to see Walse as well?
Say hello to me again. no you don't have to do...just show me your smile again....
I really hope Ji-chan is resting in peace....let me hug you once more...

Ji-chan...I really love you.
Ji-chan...Thank you for being my grandpa!
I am the happiest granddaughter in the world.
See you again.
I love you...I love you.....

Saki

Croguette

Ok,,today, I made some Croguette by flying yesterday's potato Salad.
I have never cooked one, but it was soooooooooo troublesome!


Maybe I will not cook this kind of stuff ever.
I am so tired...and I smell myself oily.
And I did not do anything productive today.
I will do tonight...

I cannot live without eating...

Recently, my standard weight has increased 2kg.
I know the reason, because I go to bed so late like 5am, get up late like at 3pm, and feel lazy and order Chinese food at 5pm...
After that, I go to the uni to work on my dissertation and become hungry around 12 oclock...I should not eat, but I always excuse myself, I cannot study anymore because I am hungry...
And then...I go to Pizza shop and order 8 inch pizza.
(I feel guilty, so I always order vegetarian pizza without meat.lol)
But, you know...whenever I have late meal, I become sleepy and lazy.
Yes...I have pizza in order to sleep!!
What a fucking stupid lazy girl...I even do not want to believe I am a GIRL.
I really hate myself...

Ok,,today, also I woke up late maybe it was 3 oclock, because I went to bed at 7am.
But, I decided! No more Chinese today!
I went to Morrison's and bought some vegetable and so on and cooked after a long time! A week ago, I was crazy about cooking Thai Curry, because my friend cooked me and it was really really yummy!
So 5 or 6 a week, I kept eating Thai Curry and when I did not cook Thai Curry, I ordered Chinese Curry.lol So, my whole week was full of curry! I was so crazy, I admit now.
But I got bored now as I could not cook so well like my friend did.
Well..Today, I cooked this!!!!



It was today's first and last meal of me. I ate it at 8pm...
OMG,,,8? what a wasted of day!
I spent my day doing nothing so far.
Yes, I know, I ate too much even it was only one meal today...
But...I wanted to eat everything I wanted to!!!!!!
Avocado and tomato and prawn was awesome!!!
I made a sauce mixing mayo, olive oil, and say sauce!
But, I cooked too much Potato Salad...maybe the portion is for 6 people or so...lol
I will try to fry the lest of potato salad tomorrow...

Pork Ginger...It is the laziest and most delicious food for people who do not cook so much! Love it!!

Phew..I am full although I cannot pronounce "I am full"!


And....

sleepy.......

Awwwwwwwwwwwww

I have a massive bad shoulder now! I need massage!
I changed the blog templates, but they have poor choice!
I wanted to get more chocolate-like or candy-like one!

Anyway, I have to make 400 words more for my dissartation today!
I am sure I misspelled dissartation, but who cares!

I am working on product placement for my paper!
Actually, I did not study product placement at all, but my topic is product placement.
It sounds silly, honestly, because I am writing something unknown for me.
So every information is new for me...
It is not like my last paper in my life!
Dissartation is supposed to be like something interesting which I have known...
But, ok! Now, I am enjoying knowing something new about my topic..
and lots of friends help me with collecting information and writing properly.
I feel I am happy, I should not be lazy..
I really appriciate people who are around me.

OK, I am gonna carry on my words after I upload this diary...

MONKEY MAJIK/Lupin The Third

How sexy thier voice is!
Monkey Majik sang a theme song of Lupin the third!

Good excuse?

Whenever I have to finish my work, I need to be motivated myself.
The most effective way is changing nail colours.

2 years ago (oh my god! Already 2 years has passed...scary!) on the Christmas day,
I was in the PC room in my uni, cuz I had to finish the analise of my thesis...
But, I hated working on the Christmas day because everybody enjoys with thier partners!
I said
"OK, I am going to the nail salon now! I need to be refreshed!!!"
My uni had a nail salon in it so I visited there, changed nail colours and came back to the PC room!
Actually, it was really good to refresh my mind and concentrate on my work.

Now, I always excuse for why I often change my nail colours, because
I need to be motivated to type boring work in front of the PC for a long time.

My father was worried about my nails because they cannot breath if I keep putting nail colours on them.
I know I know...but my nails will die? No way!
I do not care!


Today's nails are little bit childish...but they are enough to motivate me!
But honestly, as you can see, I am not good at doing such small stuff by myself.
I wish I could find a nice nail salon near here...

Came back to Wales!

Phewwww...I came back to Wales after 1 month Japan trip!
Honestly, I visited London for a while after I came back from Japan.
I found in London, I spent money for 3 days as much as I spend for 1 month in Wales.
London is evil...
But I have decided that definately I will come back to London after I get my degree in Wales cuz London was my dream!!!

By the way, I have just changed my nail colours now!
I like my retro childish pedicure!

Ribbon

I am addicted to collecting Ribbon stuff, such as necklaces, rings, earrings, and T-shirts! (Maybe because I like Hello Kitty, so at the same time, I like her ribbons!)
I know I AM NOT 12 YEARS OLD, though!

One day, I wore ribbon earrings, a ribbon necklace and a ribbon t-shirt, and painted ribbons on my nails. But I was thinking I wore ribbon too much that day.
Later, I found I lost my very very favourite ribbon ring somewhere (maybe on the train) and was very sad, but the balance of my outfit should have become better and posted a comment on my facebook..

And then, my friend Caley illustlated the ribbon story.



It was amazing!! I hope he did not illustlate it because he does not like me, though!lol
Ribbon poop...it is my ideal!

Today, on the way I was going out, my dog Catherine broke my ribbon necklace,
but before that, I just have bought 3 more ribbon necklaces, so I could ware another one and successfully could go out!<3
How can I stop collecting ribbon accessories..I am really lucky that I quit my job at accessory shop..
But my boss there creates a lot of cute cute cute ribbon accessories now, so I cannot stop ordeing some from her shop...
I can become ribbon poor..

first post

I have started my own blog randomly, but I dont think I will keep it so long!lol
Anyway, I will go to the bed now!
Good night♪